The relocation is back on! Just a couple weeks ago I posted that I am going to trust Devine timing and kinda put the whole relocation on hold because I couldn’t find a suitable place. As luck would have it, when I stopped planning and searching for a place, the place found me.
My mom turned 70 in February this year, and she has a friend who lives in Cape Town, who always calls her for her birthday, with the exception of this BIG birthday, so she messaged him asking why he’d forget her special day! He immediately called her apologizing and they just chatted and caught up. He mentioned that the reason it slipped his mind was because he was working on renting out his house and was busy with fixing all the little fixtures and cupboards in the house. He then remembered that I was looking for a place in Cape Town and offered to lease it to us!
We’ve since seen pictures, had my cousin go and look at the place and have been back and forth with phone calls in preparation for the now big move that is back in progress. We are thrilled at how things simply fall into place when the time is perfect.
There was a lot of preparations to get on track with moving again. Even mentally… Last year we made peace with the fact that the whole family won’t be able to join us on the move. Then the pause on the relocation happened and we eased our minds knowing that we will spend more time with family. Now that the move is back on and things are happening so quickly, it’s like we have to retrain our minds that we’ll still be okay and that we will still see each other and video call often, that we CAN DO THIS. But that certainly is harder than it seems. We’re such a close family, we do everything together and being apart has always been my greatest discomfort. As much as I love my home and the comfort it brings, if I have my family with me, it’s the only sense of home I need.
Before knowing that we will be moving, we booked a fun-filled, adventure infused trip to Cape Town, which will be coming up very soon. I am ecstatic, and cannot wait to spend two weeks going on adventures and experiences with my BESTEST friend in the whole world…my sister. I know that having that just a week before the big move will be the best and the worst thing we could do but we’re going to live in the moment and take one day at a time. I’ve been finding the need to constantly remind myself just how much I want this relocation.
I am happy to finally have found a place that we will be able to call home, I’m excited to decorate and play “pop huisie” in an all-new environment and to finally have the beautiful landscapes of Cape Town as a backyard. But I have been struggling emotionally with separation anxiety, being away from my family and I guess I have to pull up my big-girl socks and just go for it. I’ve always been a risk-taker and a go-getter but I think, in part, it’s because of the support I’ve always received from my family. There is very little I fear in life and this will be one to conquer! I feel that if I don’t do this, after all the years I’ve wanted to, I probably never will nor would I know if it would have been the greatest experience of my existence.
With all the activities that I yearn to experience, I think I need to have some form of youth and if I put this off for another couple years, I won’t be able to so I keep affirming to myself that this is the time to go for it.
I still hope and pray that the rest of the family will reunite with us on the other side, and that we wouldn’t be thousands of miles apart for too long. I have learnt, now more than ever, that timing is everything and all we really have control over is the amount of prayer and determination we have to actually alter our destinies. My gut says that it won’t be too long but time will reveal everything when it’s due. I’ve also never lived anywhere but Jozi, so I don’t really know what to expect. People always warn that vacationing in a place and living in a place is two very different things, so we will see how it all goes.
I thought that it would feel different, taking this big step. But I am a strong believer in just taking in the moments that come, breathing deeply when I’m overwhelmed and trusting in God to know that things are going to pan out exactly how they should.
Wish me luck 🙂