Bucket list #88 My Hijab Journey

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This bucket list item was originally “How I fixed my hair” but little did I know while that was happening I would decide to keep my hijaab on and I’ve never felt more whole, more complete and closer to Allah. I’ve learnt that when we do something truly for the sake of Allah, no hardship or easier path is an option anymore.

I remember my struggles about what I will wear when I go swimming or to the gym, but I’ve realised that it never needed to be perfect or special, only covered, modest, dedicated and for one reason only. I remember why I dress differently now, why it matters to me and everything else falls into…peace.

We could feel prettier or more like we belong, more like we fit in, but at what cost? We sometimes take a bit of getting used to, with anything, with everything; and that’s okay. So much has changed, and sometimes I don’t recognise myself, but I feel like I’m growing, making progress, choosing better and realising it was never about modest dressing, more about modest living. Islam is so beautiful and the more I learn, or see, or hear, it uncovers a part of me that I never knew exsisted and I’ve experienced a tranquility and freedom by looking with different eyes now.

World events made me realise how temporary this world is, how quickly things can be manipulated or how quickly it can all change. Nothing is easy to believe anymore, because everything has a narrative, whether honest and true, or propaganda, it depends on the narrator. It’s opinion, but there is truth, and if we seek knowledge in the right places, things are clear and transparent.

If you’re reading this and finding it difficult to make the change, just do it. It gets easier and it’s like there comes a time where you just can’t do without it. Take comfort in knowing that it’s your journey and we all have different journeys. It’s easy for some and hard for others. Praying that we all find ease and contentment in all our journeys in life.